We went back East for a quick visit based around a memorial service, the one for my friend’s mom. It was amazing; I only hope my friend agrees. The service was beautiful, happy, and promising. There were approximately one million people there. It was a gorgeous day. They hosted a busy, smiley, cozy party at their house afterward and a beautiful candle-lit walk that the mama used to do with her dog every night. We had a sleepover with a bunch of friends and a great hike capped off by lunch all together. I just really can’t explain how nice it was. My only problem, and my friend expressed this a little bit too, is: now what?
After people leave, after a little bit of time has passed, after you spend so much time trying to memorialize someone, find the perfect urn, write the perfect note, etc., now what? Life goes on all around you. Except the one life you just want so much, you miss so much. It feels like a different world almost, like something is constantly missing. And you have your good moments, where you can tell a happy story and laugh about your loved one, look at the photo album and smile, but mostly it feels foreign. Like you just can’t put your finger on what’s missing in your daily life. Obviously you know what it is, and other people do too, and it doesn’t hurt as much as time goes on, but it’s just a void. So, if you have any advice, let me know: now what?
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